Toward the end of today's NYTimes obituary for David Carr is this [h/t Ms Eclectic]:
“I now inhabit a life I don’t deserve,” Mr. Carr wrote ... “but we all walk this earth feeling we are frauds. The trick is to be grateful and hope the caper doesn’t end any time soon.”
That is so pithy, so true. I'm grateful for having taken the journey and for the life I have. [See my recent post on happiness.] I never imagined having a life so full and rich; I too feel as if "I now inhabit a life I don't deserve." Fortunately some years ago I began to understand this and accept the feelings of gratitude that inundate me every day.
Also, like Carr, I "... hope the caper doesn't end any time soon."
I recall so many of my friends from the intelligentsia over the years saying they had led full lives and could accept death whenever it comes. Not me! Despite the physical deterioration that comes with age, I am loving life, and I want to keep enjoying it.
I am not ready for this caper to end.